1. |
Open to You
03:51
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Open to You
I know I’ve been
A fugitive that’s hiding out
Inside my skin
Afraid to feel
Afraid my guard will slip down
And let someone in
But I’m open
I’m open to you
I’ve spent my life
An unwrapped christmas present
In the middle of July
And you shine your light
I don’t have anything
I want to hide
I am open
I’m open to you
I’m open to you….
I know I’m never happy
Unless you’re looking at me
I’m tired of feeling so alone
I’m open to you…
My front door’s swinging wide, babe
Why don’t you come inside, babe
Sit back and make yourself at home
I want to say
There was a time
When I would have run away
But I remain
Though I’m transparent
As a window pane
I am open
I’m open to you
I can’t stop my face from showing
How my heart is overflowing
You can read the writing on my page
Even though you see right through me
Look at what you’re doing to me
I just melt like ice cream in your gaze
I’m open to you….
I know I’m never happy
Unless you’re looking at me
I’m tired of feeling so alone
I’m open to you…
My front door’s swinging wide, babe
Why don’t you come inside, babe
Sit back and make yourself at home
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2. |
Learn to Live
03:47
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Learn to Live
So bitter cold
On this January day
And I have come
To my grandmother’s grave
So many years
Since we laid her down
Beneath this frozen ground
I feel the truth
Weighing heavy on me
My time’s gonna come
Eventually
But while fortune smiles
With days left to give
I will learn to live
And if it rains, I’ll look up
And I’ll thank the sky
If it’s dark, I will shine
With the love inside
If I’m hurting I’ll find
A way to forgive
Yes, I will learn to live
I’ve broken hearts
Got lost in myself
Taken apart
And put back together again
Watched a colourful world
Turn ugly and grey
But that was yesterday
Oh, this ground is so hard and so cold
But my breath is still warm
And this big world is so wide
And my dreams still have so far to go
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3. |
Back to You and I
04:40
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Back to You and I
At the end of the day
As I lay down in the silence of my bed
I see your face in my mind
Smiling there under the sun
On a hillside high above a lake so blue
When you were me
And I was you
Lay me back in the cool grass
Let me dream a little while
Where the seagulls glide like angels
Above us in the sky
Take me back
To you and I
Oh, those memories appear
Like dandelion seeds upon the wind
I reach my hand and then they’re gone
But I still see the day
With diamond light that shone from everything
A crystal world
So newly born
And all I know is that this love
May never come again
It fills my heart
And bleeds into my soul
And leaves me to wonder
If I’m walking in a dream
And that summer day
The only truth I’ve known
So, lay me back in the cool grass
Let me dream a little while
Where the seagulls glide like angels
Above us in the sky
Lay me back in the cool grass
Let me see your face again
I have had a glimpse of heaven
And now nothing looks the same
Take me back
Take me back
Take me back,
To you and I
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4. |
My Old Friend
04:59
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My Old Friend
My friend
My old friend
When I look into your face
I trace the stream
Of our lives
To the spring of childhood grace
I still recall
When our whole world
Was bathed in morning dew
I can see
That golden light
Still shining out from you
And the days go by just like highway signs
Catch a glimpse and then they're gone
But my friend, my friend
The road may end
But the love goes on and on
My friend, my old friend
Before my breath is gone
I want to sing
That golden light
Still shining on, and shining on
We rise up like waves
Racing to the shore
Then we crash and spray
And roll back home
To where we started from
And the days go by just like highway signs
Catch a glimpse and then they're gone
But my friend, my friend
The road may end
But my friend, my friend
The road may end
But my friend, my friend
My old friend
The love goes on and on
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5. |
Cruel, Cruel Sun
03:49
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The dirty snow has melted
No leaves yet on the trees
There’s a salty shroud of whiteness
Like bone dust on the street
And I feel like I've been wakened
From a slumber so complete
Squinting in the April sun
At the coffee shop
The window seat
This cruel, cruel sun
Won't let me be
Has found me out
Uncovered me
This cruel, cruel month
Wants it all to show
Won't let me hide
Won't let me go
Cruel, cruel sun
You left me in the autumn
Full of angry-coloured leaves
I was waiting for the bitter cold
And snow to bury me
And covered in forgetfulness
I’d lull myself to sleep
Where nothing else could reach me
No sunny days
No memories
I can feel my blood is warming
But my body’s filled with gnawing doubt
I can feel the pain that’s starting
Cause my frozen heart is thawing out
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6. |
The Red Balloon
04:28
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The Red Balloon
Jenna came back from the fair
With a shiny red balloon
And she laughed and bounced it up and down
Let it float around her room
And she thought how it was beautiful
And how it was all her own
She said “I’ll keep it here with me,
Till I am big and grown”
The next day her mother said
“Hey Jen, what would you think
If we take this balloon out back
And we let go of the string?
And we’ll tie a message good and tight
And this is what we’ll say:
“Whoever finds this red balloon,
True love will come your way”
Her mother said,
Let it go,
let’s watch it fly
Shining red against
that blue, blue sky
Let it ride the wind
Like it was meant to do
Cause when you let what you love go
Somehow it stays with you
But Jenna’s eyes filled up with tears
And she cried and said I can’t
I want to keep my red balloon
I can’t open up my hand
So, her mother said “don’t worry, babe
Let’s take it back inside”
But the days went by and Jenna watched
As it lost it’s will to fly
And the morning that she found it
lying on the floor
She knew she’d never hold a string
So tightly anymore
She heard her mother say:
Let it go,
let’s watch it fly
Blazing red against
that blue, blue sky
Let it ride the wind
Like it was meant to do
Cause when you let what you love go
Somehow it stays with you
Jenna’s eyes grew wide and bright
When her mom stood at the door
And in her hand a red balloon
Even bigger than before
But Jenna said, “I’ll write the note,
And this is what we’ll say:
If you’ve got love kept in your heart,
Then give it all away”
And together they
Let it go
And they watched it fly
Shining red
Against the blue, blue sky
As Jenna watched it climb
Like it was made to do
She knew her heart still held on tight
To the shiny red balloon
In her heart she still held
The shiny red balloon
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7. |
Courage, My Love
04:24
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Courage, My Love
Courage, my love
That’s what we need
The strength to hold on
When the days make us weak
The emptiness rolls
Like a dark restless sea
When the night closes in around me
But courage, my love
Have faith in my heart
Our words safe and warm
When we are apart
Your name is the sound
That the wind tries to speak
And the breeze is your hand upon my cheek
Courage
And you’ll see
The same moon shining down on you
Is shining down on me
Courage
And we’ll make it through
The road that’s leading me away
Will bring me back to you
Courage, my love
And always believe
The future we face
Is the one that we dream
I feel you inside
And I know that it’s true
My spirit is woven to you
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8. |
The Thing that I Wanted
04:41
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The Thing that I Wanted
I rolled two hearts just like dice
‘cross the table and lost
I was thinking about winning
But never considered the cost
A gambler that’s over his head
Never knows when to go home
‘Till all of the veins he can bleed
Have been bled to the bone
Nothing in my history
Prepared me for love
You thought I was sure of myself
I was making it up
Everything I planned to do
Was too late or wasn’t enough
Now my hope’s like the dried residue
In a throw-away cup
I have my pride
I have my space
I have the freedom to go anyplace
I have my stories
I have my truth
But thing that I wanted was you
You looked at me like a cat
Crawling in from the rain
With a pity you liked to call love
but tinged with disdain
You waited for me to step up
While I waited for something to change
Now I’m like the host of a party
When nobody came
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9. |
Because I Fell for You
03:28
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Because I Fell for You
I used to think my life was passing by
Love was like a river running dry
But now I’m walking round this town
Just smiling like a fool
All because I fell for you
I was just a stranger in the crowd
I saw your face come shining through the clouds
I didn’t want to stare
But there was nothing I could do
Then I fell for you
I don’t want to try to understand
I don’t want to think about a plan
Everything is right
Every day is bright
Every sky is blue
Suddenly I’m happy just to be
Anywhere you are next to me
Darling, all because I fell for you
It’s crazy what your love has done to me
I can’t remember who I used to be
You have handed me a chance
To start it all anew
All because I fell for you
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10. |
Singing Your Songs
04:13
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Singing Your Songs
Nothing but a fading dream
That summer long ago
You and me took that beat-up car
And we headed for the coast
You were gonna write your songs
I was gonna find a job
And maybe we would save enough
To start that little coffee shop
But oh, in the morning light
When dreams become so hard to hold
And even the warmest love grows cold
Chorus:
And I remember
The headlights on the highway
Your soft voice in the darkness
Washing right over me
And maybe I could forgive you
For saying that you loved me
But how do I forget you
Singing your songs to me
You taught me how to love
With a strength I’d never felt before
Never knew a heart had so many rooms
Or sadness, so many floors
When I stepped off that Greyhound bus
My heart just like that beat-up car
I swore I’d never think of you
But scared I’d never love so hard again
But sometimes late at night
When I am lying all alone
I feel your hand in mine
(Chorus)
Baby, I hear your sweet voice
Like a ghost that’s haunting me
All the pieces and the fragments
Of your shattered poetry
Sometimes it’s a deluge
And I hear you in the rain
Saying come away, come away…
(Chorus)
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11. |
If Only I
03:55
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If Only I
If only I could see
What everybody sees
When I look into the mirror
And the doubts begin to creep
If I believed enough
That I deserve the love
That I give away so easily
But don’t feel worthy of
If only, only I
Could learn to shine
With the light I hide
The world could
Be blinded by
The love inside
If only I
If I could just begin
To see the beauty that’s within
When I feel nobody’s looking for
The things I’m offering
If only I could trace
Every hardship I have faced
How every step both good and bad
Has led me to this place
If only I believed
That I was meant to be
As happy as a child under the sky
There’d be no asking please
And no apologies
For painting on the canvas of my life
If only, only I
Could learn to shine
With the light I hide
The world could
Be blinded by
The love inside
If only I
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12. |
Just a Little Rain
07:18
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Just a Little Rain
Give it time
Give it just a little time
Maybe then you'll see
That all these ghosts and shadows
Were just in your mind
All of those bad dreams fading away
All of those sad tears
Don't take too long
Don’t take too long looking back
Time races on
It speeds just like a freight train
Down a one-way track
And here at the station, baby, you wait
For something to happen
And you might say that there’s no way
You’ll ever make it
Through the storm again
But what if you went dancing in the rain?
Take the high with the low
Baby, that’s how life’s supposed to go
You cry, but you know
That it’s only just the winding of the road
And every dark cloud’s not a hurricane
It’s just a little rain
There's a light shining ‘cross the bay
And in the dead of night
It calls you like a hunger that won't go away
Something is missing
You need to face
But if you just listen
You might hear your own heart
Saying you can make it
Through the storm again
And find yourself out dancing in the rain
Take the high with the low
Baby, that’s how life’s supposed to go
You cry, but you know
That it’s only just the winding of the road
And every dark cloud’s not a hurricane
It’s just a little rain
And you might hear your own heart
Saying you can make it
Through the storm again
And find yourself out dancing in the rain
Take the high with the low
Baby that’s how life’s supposed to go
You cry but you know
That it’s only just the winding of the road
A little high, a little low
That’s how love can go
Sometimes you feel the pain
Then you tell yourself it’s just a little rain
Take the high with the low
It’s just the winding road
You face the hurricane
Then you tell yourself it’s just a little rain
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13. |
Who's Gonna Love Me?
05:10
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Chorus:
Who’s gonna love me?
Love me like you do
Who’s gonna see me?
See me through and through
Who’s gonna take time to pull me out
When I am sinking in my doubt?
And help me find my smile when I am blue?
Who’s gonna love me like you do?
Baby, I took your clear sky
Of innocence and faith
And I filled it with these grey clouds of uncertainty
I guess that you were right,
I was only thinking ‘bout myself
But I never figured out just what was hurting me
Now everything is scattered
Like a day after the storm
And I know inside what I have lost
(Chorus)
How do I replace
The things that I erased?
How can I undo what I have done?
How do I un-see
The cold reality?
And go on,
and go on…
I once believed illusion
Was easier to bear
Oh, I’d rather dream
Than learn a truth that came too late
But I was storing up regrets
Like ghosts under the stairs
Then I woke to find that you weren’t there
(Chorus)
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